RachelKay30

you said you were okay as you gripped the pencil, writing furiously, letting your words soak into a world of emotion and I asked, “Are you sure?” and you looked at me and your eyes were shining with tears that threatened to overflow like a dam and all I could do was stand there and watch as a meteor shower fell between us and we were collapsing into a sea of feeling and dammit Elise Elise you keep screwing up stop screwing up he doesn’t love you he hits you but he stared into my liquid emerald eyes and I was swimming in the blue ocean of his so we gave in to the only thing we ever know.

today i saw life in the purest of forms; sand she gave me a smile and i smiled back; because she was happy at a time when she could and because we were both sad, i always lacked the courage to stand up for what i believed in, even if it was my life on the line because back then, life didn't really matter and life now - this life is mine. today and tomorrow until the sun doesn't shine; you can't take away my soul until you take away time.

memories aren't always accurate. they grow and morph into a swirl of twisted tree roots and darkened poison until nothing is salvageable from the ruins. they gut and kill and smile and flower, a bud that grows like love and sticks like a stubborn mule. maybe one day they'll destroy unwanted memories and we can be freed. but is that what we'd call it? or would we be destroyed too? our hidden companion would be gone. yeah, we'd forget the ugly breakup but is it worth the loss of our conscience? our soul? maybe one day they'll destroy unwanted memories and we'll truly then become robots.

i remember when you looked at me sparks flew like my heart rattling in its cage and you said you'd like to see me sometime and i smiled. i remember when you ran around town with me two firecrackers waiting to explode and we screamed to paramore as you said you loved me. i remember when the silence was cutting and your arms were gone and my heart my soul you were gone. i remember lying in bed my sadness keeping me afloat tugging and pulling and wanting me to let go. i remember waking up and wondering why i was here and why you weren’t. why the earth was still turning and everyone was smilingwhen you couldn’t.

and he was gone. Like a thunderstorm I cracked across the large dining hall, my breaths failing to keep me happy    my soul failing to    keep me afloat        my heart failing to        keep me content. I ran to the car doors as he looked to me, his piercing blue eyes shining with sadness. "Elise," he whispered with such meaning that my heart beat with ferocity. "Ray," I stated firmly, and I saw the pain and I knew in that instant he was f a l l i n g  a p a r t, and I was holding him together and then I was crying, screaming in my head and sobbing into his chest. "Why does this always happen with us?" And I saw his caring eyes and h